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#20 – Memory Foam.

Memory Foam

I remember how it used to feel

Every time prior to meeting you –

The way butterflies grew from the pits of my stomach;

How my heart would race because it liked the view.

I remember what it felt like

Every time you looked at me –

The way you stared into my soul;

How I melted from your gaze so gently.

I remember how you made me feel

Every time you touched me so tenderly –

The way you held my hands in yours;

How everything would fit so perfectly.

I remember how it felt like that night –

To have my heart ache in dying pain;

To fall to my knees in a standing crowd;

To cry cries that screamed in vain.

I will remember how it feels like

Every time thoughts of you surface –

The way my stomach knots itself in disgust;

How my jaw dropped in the first place.

I am always remembering how it feels –

Because losing you isn’t just a one-time affair;

And I hope never to fall in love again

Because the torture is more than I can bear.

With love,

Emily.

Film photography, Kodak Portra 400, PoetryEmily Ung8 December 2015Film, Film Photography, Kodak Portra 400, PoetryComment

#19 – Bright Blue.

Another set of film photographs I took back in September – on a day I journeyed from university to Carriageworks in Eveleigh for Sydney Contemporary, Australasia’s international art fair.

It was my first time at Sydney Contemporary, but it certainly lived up to my expectations. It was mind-blowingly amazing – perpetually getting lost among complex and conceptual pieces. (I didn’t take any film photographs of the artworks, but you can catch a glimpse of them here)

Whole

I like long walks –

And your company

Was an extension of me.

With love,

Emily.

Film photography, Kodak Portra 400, PoetryEmily Ung5 December 2015Film, Film Photography, Kodak Portra 400, PoetryComment

#18 – (Dis)integrate.

(Dis)intergrate

I wish to melt into a puddle

Of my blood, sweat and tears;

To wash away my sin with your guilt

(Or lack thereof); To rid myself

Of doubt and fear.

Because – at this point and

In this very moment –

I have fueled more hate and distaste

Than love and life

In my being, and the only way

To relieve me is the one thing

I am unknown to.

My shortcomings fill

This tall tunnel I stand in

And my disappointment stares

Me in the face and dares

To tear apart all I stand for.

Even in this lack of light

I see my failures with clarity –

And nothing scares me more

Because I don’t know what I stand for

Anymore.

With love,

Emily.

Film photography, Kodak Portra 400, PoetryEmily Ung27 November 2015Film, Film Photography, Kodak Portra 400, Poetry Comment

#17 – Postcards.

To write a postcard is to say,

“I miss you,”

In every possible way –

I wish you had stayed.

From

Postcards –

Soft light and faded memories –

Perfect in the way they remind me.

With love,

Emily.

Film photography, Kodak Portra 400, Poetry, Fujifilm Superia 400Emily Ung19 November 2015Film, Film Photography, Poetry, Kodak Portra 400, Fujifilm Superia 400Comment

#16 – Nooks and Crannies.

Apart from spending my days sipping coffee in a café – either studying or people watching or procrastinating my time away (and by that I mean writing) – I often have days to myself where I visit an art gallery/museum.

I deeply love all forms of art and appreciate its value in illuminating issues and challenging perspectives. I believe that art plays an important role in society – whether you recognise or appreciate it, or not – and has had a paramount importance in my life since my younger years (I wanted to grow up to be an artist). Art has a gut wrenching and compelling quality that is capable of making me stop in my footsteps to admire its glory in totality – its aesthetic, its concept and its message. A question I always ask is, “how did the artist do/make this?” I find myself so intrigued by their work and it has me constantly wondering about their practice.

I think the habit of asking myself that question is attributed to having taken visual arts as a subject in high school – which I loved and excelled in. The study of art theory encompassed the aspect of ‘artist practice’ – all the little technicalities involved – which we were taught to analyse and consciously incorporate into our own art making as well. I loved making art because it challenged me – pushed me outside my comfort zone and taught me a lot about myself. (More of that next time.)

Anyway, on the days I pace along gallery walls, I try to pack more into my itinerary. With my camera I will walk through city streets and lanes, snapping at interesting things and new perspectives. However, while I love taking photos, I’ve slowly refrained from constantly having my camera in hand when I’m in an art gallery or museum – I just feel that it distracts me from my purpose of being there. (I'm secretly happy when photography is not allowed in an exhibition.)

These film photos were taken on a fine day in August when I went to see Aleks Denko’s exhibition “My Fellow Aus-Tra-Aliens” at the Museum of Contemporary Art Australia – situated in The Rocks, Sydney.

I felt like this was the epitome of my dreams getting mocked at (thumbs up for the curating of the exhibition).

But I loved his satirical humour and social commentary that was carried consistently throughout the exhibition.

Ended off the day with my first escape room experience and quality time with friends.

Looking forward to celebrating the end of exams and assignments with food, friends and fun (plenty of fun) – and of course, getting to do more writing and photography!

With love,

Emily.

Film photography, Kodak Portra 400, PhotographyEmily Ung16 November 2015Film, Film Photography, Kodak Portra 400Comment